So something interesting happened the other night that I want to share.
First of all, when Rob came home from work he had told me about this car accident he saw on the way to work. He said it was kind of a weird accident and he wasn't sure how it happened or anything. I don't remember all the details, but for some reason he seemed very interested in it.
Then last night, I had this dream where I had some extra money and my mom was going to help me donate it to something. She wanted me to give it to caner researchers or something but I told her I wanted to give it to people who study diabetes because that's what killed Ben. Now before I continue with the story, let me first say my mom is NOT like this. She is NOT a mean person, she's very kind, caring and usually only thinks about others. But for some reason in this dream she was waaaay ooc and said something like, "Oh he's dead, just get over it." And of course I was pissed and felt awful.
So in the dream I left and went around searching for a bank to put my money into because I didn't want mom to take it. Later on I returned home and she was very apologetic to me and said she had a surprise for me in the other room. So I went into the other room which was more of like a basement, but apparently I had built this cardboard house in this room. I looked at it and suddenly it disappeared and then reappeared, and I somehow knew this was Ben's doing. (It made sense in the dream anyway) I got really excited and was saying things like, "Oh Ben's here!" and things like that. Then... I can't really explain the next part, but even though I couldn't SEE him, I knew he had like come around the corner and we gave each other a hug. I remember saying I was so glad he was okay and I was just ecstatic he was there and okay. The weird thing is, even though I couldn't see him, I kinda knew what he looked like, and I remember him looking younger than he did in the videos....
There were other parts to this dream where I saw him again and asked him what heaven was like... but those parts didn't feel the same as the part above so I'm not going to discuss those.
Anyway when I first woke up from this dream I didn't think much of it. So I just went back to sleep. It wasn't until I got up today and started doing my usual routine that I really started thinking about it and it's like... I felt something from it. I guess I didn't want to really think this was something real or that had had visited me, and I just kinda figured that's all it was. Just a dream. I figured what I was feeling was still due to his death and what not.
Later on I told Rob about the dream and he kinda had this look on his face and he told me it was interesting that I had that dream. Then he asked if I remembered the car accident he saw and I said yes. He said when he drove past it he felt really bad, like he felt this despair from it. When he got to work he started thinking about things and for some reason started thinking about Ben. Now the way he put it was he said he "broadcast a message" to Ben asking him to never leave me. He basically said it was like sometimes you talk to the sky you know... I guess you could consider it a prayer if we were religious. But he didn't tell me this until AFTER I told him about the dream so... this really seems like it was something special.
It's also kind of funny too that the tattoo I have on my arm says "We'll meet again someday, just a dream away."
Now I don't believe in the bible god, I don't believe in things like heaven and hell and souls and what not. But I do believe there is something after death. I can't tell you what, but it's there. And, well, it's very comforting to see that Ben is doing just fine. He always talked about how he'd love to be younger again and it seems he got his wish. So yeah... I can't tell you what's out there after death, but there is something, and well I'm happy to report that whatever it is, Ben is doing just fine. He's very happy. I kinda knew this anyway.
But I wanted to share that with you guys just in case any of you were worried or wondering.
